Kim Kardashian is one of my idols. She shows how hard work can lead to success in life. Some people say she is creating unrealistic expectations of beauty. But I think that is unfair. There is a huge industry that has been doing that for a long time, run by men. People are only angry now because a woman is making money from it. Kim Kardashian knows how the beauty industry works and she is good at it.
But I disagree with her recent comments on mental health. She said: “But I do love the ‘fake it until you make it,’ because I think if you are a person that is not happy, or is depressed, and you can’t get up to — don’t have that drive to work, if you’re faking that you’re happy and you are at least putting out that energy that you are happy, you will feel that. You will get there. I always have really felt that.”
I have high functioning depression and I know that her advice is wrong. Lately, I have been feeling very negative. Nobody can tell from the outside. I go to work, I socialize, I play with my kids. But inside, I feel lonely. I feel like nobody supports me. I feel empty. I feel abandoned. Even though I know it is not true. My mind is trying to deceive me.
I know this will pass eventually. But right now, nothing I do or achieve makes me happy. I only feel a brief joy when I finish something, but then I feel sad and lonely again.
Maybe she knows how that feels. Maybe she is lonely too and tries to fill it with success. Maybe she is addicted to that short-lived happiness when she accomplishes something. I can relate to that. But that is not a good way to live. And to tell people that pretending to be happy will make them happy. That is not true. I have never seen that happen.
— xoxo Sandy
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